Which Wolf Will You Feed? (Parshas Va'eira)

An old man sat with his grandson by the campfire, gazing into the dancing flames. With a sparkle in his eye, the old man looked at the young boy and began telling him a story. "Legend has it that there is a fight going on inside each of us between two wolves. One wolf is evil, filled with anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other wolf is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. These wolves are constantly at war, a war that rages on within each of us.” The grandson thought about this quietly for a minute and then asked his grandfather: “Which wolf wins?” The old man looked at his grandson and replied, “The one you feed.”

The Mateh: Good or Evil?

There is a principle in Jewish thought that many of the most fundamental aspects of Torah are expressed in the most deceptively simple manner. Our job is to delve into these seemingly mundane topics and reveal their inner depth and meaning. One such example is Moshe's mateh-his staff. It plays a pivotal role within the story of Yetzias Mitzrayim (Exodus from Egypt), and yet how often do we ponder its paramount significance?

The mateh first appears at the sneh (burning bush), where it turns into a snake.[1] When Moshe confronts Pharaoh's court, the mateh once again turns into a snake.[2] In Jewish thought, the snake represents evil and the yetzer hara (evil inclination), so it would appear as if the mateh represents evil.

However, the mateh is also used to perform all the makkos in Mitzrayim[3], as well as Krias Yam Suf (the splitting of the Red Sea)- the pinnacle of the miraculous, transcendent experience of Yetzias Mitzrayim. Additionally, the midrash explains that Hashem's name was crystalized into the mateh itself. It therefore appears that the mateh is a very spiritual object, the exact opposite of the evil it seems to represent. What, then, is the true nature of the mateh?

Everything is Potential

In order to understand the meaning of the mateh, we must first develop a fundamental principle. The Maharal explains that nothing in the physical world is objectively good or evil. Rather everything has the potential to be used for either good or evil. The choice is solely up to us. This can be illustrated by a number of examples:

• Electricity is neither good nor bad. An outlet can be used to charge your appliances, but it can also give you an electric shock.
• The same applies to money: it can be used to enable Torah learning, but it can also be used to fund destruction and chaos.[4]
• A charismatic personality can be used to inspire others to grow or to seduce them down the wrong path.

Everything in this world is merely potential, waiting to be used. Evil, therefore, is the misuse of potential, when we choose to use an object for something other than its true purpose. Evil is the breakdown and corruption of good. This is why the Hebrew word for evil is rah, which means brokenness or fragmentation.

Hashem created the world in this way so that human beings can have free will. We get to choose whether to use things for their true purpose, actualizing their potential, or to misuse them, getting pulled into the clutches of evil.[5]

The Highest Yearning, The Lowest Desire

The Gemara[6] gives an intriguing illustration of this principle, describing the historic transition when nevuah (prophecy) came to an end. When the Anshei K’nesses Ha'Gedolah (Men of the Great Assembly) excised the yetzer hara for avodah zarah (idol worship), the yetzer hara came flaming out of the Kodesh Ha’Kodashim- the Holy of Holies! Why would the source of evil and corruption come from the highest, most transcendent place? We would expect it to emerge from underground, or erupt from a volcano, or some equally sinister place.

We can understand this peculiar location based on the very idea we just developed. The root of evil is deeply connected to good. Evil is simply the misuse of the same energy that could, and should, be used for good. The desire for avodah zarah is a corruption of the spiritual desire to transcend and connect with Hashem. When correctly manifested, this desire is used for nevuah - a deep experiential oneness with Hashem, the source of everything. When corrupted and used for avodah zarah, we take that same desire to transcend, but fail to trace ourselves back to the root source, Hashem Himself, and stop instead at the intermediaries. Essentially, the root desire for avodah zarah and nevuah are one and the same; this strong drive is purely potential, and we choose whether it will be used for the positive or negative. And consequently, once the desire for avodah zara was excised, the same applied to nevuah as well.[7]

The More Power, The More Potential

Having established that everything has the potential to be used for good or evil, it's also important to realize that the more power there is, the more potential there is. For example:

• A 220-watt outlet can either charge your phone or give you a small electric shock.
• But 20,000 watts can either light up your neighborhood or electrocute you.

The point is: the more power, the more potential. Of course, this results in an important principle: the value in any power is only in as much as it can be controlled. Otherwise, the more power you have, the more destruction you will have, as we often see with nuclear energy and money. Just think about giving a child the power to cross the street by himself. When do you give him such a power? Only when he has the ability to control it, to know when not to cross the street.

The Mateh: Potential for Good or Evil

Now we can begin to understand the Mateh. It is neither good nor evil. Its nature depends solely on the one who holds it. It can represent the nachash, the snake of evil, but it can also be used for spirituality, to carry out Hashem’s mission in this world. When in the form of evil, it causes Moshe to run away in abject terror, but when in the form of good, it enables the world to witness Hashem’s miracles. While this alone is an essential point, we can develop this theme even further. 

The Bent Path and the Straight Path

The midrash compares Mitzrayim and the nachash to a "bent path", while the mateh symbolizes a straight path. What is the deeper meaning behind the concepts of the bent and straight paths?

Imagine you are walking along a straight path. At any point along the path, if you turn around, you can see exactly where you came from. However, if the path suddenly takes a sharp turn, bending off its straight course, then if you turn around, you can no longer see the starting point of your journey. The same is true of the physical world in which we live. Originally, the physical world faithfully and perfectly reflected its spiritual root. When you looked around, you saw and experienced Hashem, and you knew that He created the world; it was like looking back down a straight path. However, after Adam sinned, the entire world fell. The world became a bent path, and it is no longer clear where we come from. When we look around, we no longer see a universe that clearly and loyally reflects its Godliness.[8]

The nachash bends and slithers, representing a bent path, a world of evil and brokenness, where you can no longer see Hashem. The mateh represents a straight path, through which you trace yourself back to your source.

When Moshe first encounters Hashem, he is told to thrust the mateh to the ground, where it then transforms into a snake. When something is thrust to the ground, low and distant from its transcendent source, it becomes bent, it becomes evil. But when Moshe lifted it up, towards the sky, tracing it back to its source, straightening the bent path, it became a mateh, a source of good.[9]

Explaining Moshe’s Showdown with Pharaoh

With this deep understanding of the bent and straight path, we can understand Moshe and Aharon's showdown with Pharaoh in a new light. The midrash explains that when Moshe and Aharon turned their mateh into a snake in front of Pharaoh, he laughed. Not only did he proceed to do the same thing himself, but he then brought his magicians, and even his wife, to do the same as well. To drive his point home, he proceeded to bring the schoolchildren in to perform this trick as well. Laughing at Moshe, he exclaims: "One who has goods to sell should take them to a market which is short on supply. You've brought your goods to an overstocked market". In other words, we are not impressed. Moshe responds, "One who has top-quality produce takes it to a well-stocked market, where the dealers are experts and will recognize the superior quality of the goods”. On that note, Aharon's mateh swallows all the other snakes, once it has already transformed back into a mateh.

The deep explanation behind this cryptic scene is not just that Moshe overcame Pharaoh and Mitzrayim. Remember, the midrash explained that the snake and Mitzrayim represent the bent path; the mateh represents the straight path. It doesn't say that Moshe and Aharon's snake swallowed Pharaoh’s snakes, it says that their mateh swallowed their snakes! Meaning, the straight path overcame the bent path, good overcame evil.

The Secret of Tzitzis

This principle - of the straight and bent path - is also the secret behind tzitzis. Tzitzis are only required on a cornered garment.[10] It is only when the edge of the garment begins to bend, that we are obligated to attach tzitzis to the corners. The straight lines of the tzitzis straighten the bent path of the garment. Thus, tzitzis represent our ability to source ourselves back to Hashem, even on a bent path.

The details of tzitzis beautifully reflect this idea. The tzitzis strings are techeiles, dyed a beautiful ocean blue color. This reminds us of the sea, which reminds us of the sky, which then reminds us of the Kisei Ha'kavod (Hashem’s throne), and ultimately helps us trace ourselves back to Hashem Himself. The gematria (numerical value) of the word “tzitzis” is 600, and when you add the eight strings and the five knots, you get a total of 613, corresponding to the 613 mitzvos we use to connect ourselves to Hashem.[11]

Straightening the Bent Path

Everything in our world is potential, having the ability to be used for good or for evil. The choice is ours. Just as we choose which of the two wolves to feed,[12] we choose how to use the potential in this world. The pull and temptation of negative desire can be overwhelming, but the pursuit of truth, of the straight path, must prevail. We each get to choose who we will become. Let us be inspired to straighten the bent path, build clarity from confusion, oneness from brokenness, and bring the world to its ultimate destination.

[1] Hashem turns it into a snake in Moshe’s hands in response to Moshe speaking lashon hara about the Jewish People (Shemos 4:3, see Rashi).

[2] Shemos 7:12. Chazal equate the mateh of Aharon with the mateh of Moshe.

[3] Shemos 4:17.

[4] For a more extensive discussion of the concept and challenges of potential, see chapter on Parshas Pekudei.

[5] See chapter on Parshas Tetzaveh for a deeper explanation of why we needed to be created with free will.

[6] Yoma 69b.

[7] See chapter on Parshas Matos for a fuller discussion on why the Anshei K’nesses Ha'Gedolah felt it necessary to destroy our desire for avodah zarah, thereby causing the end of nevuah.

[8] See chapter on Parshas Mikeitz, section: “Adam Ha’Rishon”.

[9] For further discussion and applications of the bent path vs. the straight path, see chapters on Parshas Shelach and Parshas Korach.

[10] A four-cornered garment.

[11] Food for thought: the mitzvah of mezuza (which is placed bent on the doorpost) and the copper snake (bent) on the mateh (straight) in the midbar which overcame the plague both connect to this topic but are beyond the scope of this chapter.

[12] See introductory story.

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