Imagine waking up in a hospital bed with amnesia; you haven't the foggiest clue who you are. You try to recall your most recent memories and how you may have gotten here, but you can't seem to remember. After a few seconds, you come to realize that you truly have no idea who you are. Just then, a group of men enter the room and deliver some shocking news. They tell you that you are the leader of the country, and that once you're feeling better, there are some important issues for you to deal with. How would you feel? You'd probably hold your head up high, realizing that you are someone important. But what if instead of addressing you as a world leader, those same people informed you that you were the hospital janitor; instead of awaiting your return to the oval office, they're awaiting your return to the bathrooms on the second floor. How would you feel then? What would you think of yourself?
A central question in the story of Noach is why Hashem specifically chose to destroy the world through a flood. Hashem could have chosen any form of destruction, and yet, He chose water. Why?
In Judaism, water is often associated with the mitzvah of mikvah, the requirement to immerse oneself in a natural water bath in order to cleanse oneself of spiritual impurity. What is the meaning behind this strange action? Washing oneself with water removes physical filth, but how does it affect one's spiritual state? In order to understand both the mabul (flood) and the unique power of mikvah, we must first understand the spiritual concept of water.
The Maharal explains that the fundamental nature of water lies in the fact that it is formless. Water has no independent form of its own, it adopts the shape of its container. The ocean is completely formless, and unlike dry land, it has no pathways or landmarks. This attribute of water reflects its essence. Water represents the initial stage in every creative process. Before something becomes expressed and takes on form, it exists in a formless, amorphous state. Through the creative process, physical form emerges from this intangible, formless root. This is why the Torah states that during the creation of the world, there was initially only water. Only afterwards did dry land emerge from the water.
This is the deep secret behind the mabul: Hashem was not destroying the world, He was recreating it. The Dor Ha'Mabul (generation of the flood) became so corrupted that Hashem decided to start over with Noach alone. Hashem therefore immersed the world in water so that it could return to its primordial state of formlessness and void. Only once it reverted back to its original state could the dry land once again emerge from the waters, recreated and reformed. And only once the dry land emerged, and the world was birthed once more, could Noach leave the teivah (ark).
This deep nature and purpose of water also explains why we are surrounded by amniotic fluids while we are in the womb. Just as during creation, the physical world of form emerged from formless water, each of us has our own creation story, and therefore, we each emerge from our own waters; our birth is like the birth of a new world.
As we previously discussed, while we are in the womb, a malach (angel) teaches us kol ha'Torah kulah (all of Torah). As the Vilna Gaon explains, thisrefers to the deepest realms of Torah, a transcendent Torah that lies far beyond this world, beyond the confines of space and time. This Torah is the very root of reality, and we are granted complete understanding of its every detail. Not only were you shown this level of Torah, but you learned your specific share of Torah- you were shown your unique purpose in the world, and how your unique role fits into the larger scheme of the human story as a whole. You were given a taste of your own perfection, of what you could, should, and hopefully will become. And from this transcendent realm, you were birthed into the physical world, emerging from these formless waters with the mission to give form and actualize everything you were shown in the womb, while in your perfect, primordial state.
A further example of water’s unique spiritual purpose is apparent in the events of Krias Yam Suf (splitting of the Red Sea). The commentators point out that the Jewish People’s journey through the Yam Suf appears to be pointless. After all, Chazal explains that Klal Yisrael exited on the very same side that they entered! If Hashem simply wanted to destroy the Egyptians, there were easier ways to accomplish this. What was the purpose of such a journey?
The Maharal explains that Yetzias Mitzrayim (Exodus from Egypt) was the creation and birth of the Jewish People. Therefore, just as the creation and recreation of the world emerged from water, the Jewish People had to be born from water as well. They therefore entered the water and emerged reborn. In essence, the splitting of the Yam Suf was like a pregnant woman's water breaking. They entered as individuals, but emerged reborn, as a nation. The entire world, the Jewish nation, and each individual person has a creation story of emerging from formless water into concrete existence.
Having shown that water serves as the means of recreation, as in its role within Krias Yam Suf, we can now understand the unique mitzvah of entering the waters of a mikvah. When we immerse ourselves in the waters of the mikvah, we return to a pure, formless state - the original state of perfection that we possessed while in the womb. By returning to our root and reconnecting to our higher selves, we "wash" away our spiritual impurity. When we emerge, we emerge reborn. It is as if we have been recreated, taking on form and shape for the first time. The process of emerging from the mikvah is comparable to the dry land emerging from the primordial waters.
This sheds light on the unique circumstances that require immersion in a mikvah.For example, a Jewish convert (ger) immerses in the waters of a mikvah as the final step in the conversion process. This is because a Jewish convert is considered to be born anew (“ger ke'katan she’nolad dami”). The convert immerses in the waters of the mikvah, the medium of recreation, and emerges reborn. He or she entered as an old version of him or herself, but emerges anew - reborn, ready for a new way of life.
With this background, we can understand the prevalence of the number forty in the story of the mabul, as well is in relation to the waters of the mikvah.
What is the meaning behind these different features of forty, and what is the connection between them and water?
The number forty represents the spiritual concept of form, the point at which something formless takes on concrete form. This is apparent throughout tanach and halacha:
The themes of water and the number forty, which surround our formation and creation, are prominent within the features of Rosh Hashana as well. The word "shofar" shares a root with "mei shafir", the amniotic fluid which surrounds the fetus while in the womb. The shofar is a wake-up blast, meant to shake us out of our stupor and bring us back to our root self. When we hear the shofar's deafening cry, we yearn to return to our source, to our higher self. The word "shofar" also shares a root with "li'shaper", to perfect and beautify. When we blow the shofar, we are reminded to improve and perfect ourselves, to return to the fetal state of perfection we once knew, to return to our true selves.
Amazingly, we begin blowing shofar on Rosh Chodesh Elul, and our final shofar blast occurs at the climax of Yom Kippur. It is no coincidence that there are a total of forty days from Rosh Chodesh Elul through Yom Kippur. These forty days are the gestation and formation of the rest of our year. Yom Kippur marks our rebirth, our recreation, where we take on our new form and enter the year with newfound purpose.
Every day, we get to choose who we are, what we believe in, and how we are going to live our lives. Each morning, we get to create our identity. We are never stuck in the patterns of our past; each day we begin anew. As Avraham, who makes his first appearance at the end of Parshas Noach, said, "anochi afar v’efer"- I am but dust and ashes. This is generally understood as a statement of extreme humility. However, there is a fundamentally deeper explanation of this statement as well. Ashes represent an elemental breakdown, the most basic particles of an object. Dirt is the starting point of growth, the place where seeds are planted and given life. In a deeper sense, Avraham was saying that every day he would "ash" himself, breaking his very “self” down into its elemental, root form, and he would then plant himself anew. In other words, Avraham would recreate himself every single day. Each and every day, he looked deep within himself, examined and broke down every aspect of his “self”, and then recreated himself for the better, taking the next step in his spiritual growth. Avraham never continued living the same way simply because it was comfortable, or he because he was used to it. Avraham challenged himself daily, constantly pushing himself to become the very best he could be. May we all be inspired to embark on a journey of genuine "afar v'efer", finding excitement and meaning in our constant growth and internal recreation.
Gevuros Hashem, Chapter 19.
It is pure chomer, without anytzurah.
Niddah 30b. For a more in-depth discussion of this topic, see previous chapter on Parshas Bereishis, section: “Your Creation Story”.
See Arachin 15a and Tosafos there. See also Chizkuni, Shemos 15:22.
Gevuros Hashem, Chapter 55.
This has many potential halachic applications. See Brachos 60a and the story of Rachel and Dina. See also Tosafos, Sanhedrin 22a regarding the permissibility to daven for the gender of a child before forty days.
For a fuller explanation of this concept, see chapter on Parshas Vayechi, section: “Order that Provides Practical Benefits.”
See chapter on Parshas Nitzavim for more on this topic.
Itis also amazing to look at the Hebrew word for mother- "eim", comprised of an aleph and a mem. Mem is the gematria (numerical value) of forty. A mother creates the space within her for the child to form and come into existence. She takes the "aleph" (a spark of potential- with the gematria of one) and gives it the opportunity to expand from potential and formlessness into actual, concrete, physical existence. See chapter on Parshas V’Zos Ha’Bracha, section: “The Words Emes and Emunah” and see footnote there for a profound insight into the relationship between the word eim and the journey from amen to emes.
For a deeper layer to this idea, see chapter on Parshas Vayeira.
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